SOMBONG NYA.

as what i've been promised in my previous entry, no more writing, crying about stupid and cheesy thing sb tu boleh membawa kpd kebosanan dan kemenyampahan org yg membaca. heh. okay , entry this time bunyik mcm nak carik gaduh je kan ? ah , sukalah blog aku. *pangg, kena serang dgn paperplane.


jom straight to the points je okay ? actually ni bukan cerita pasal org yg sombong dan angkuh takpun dlm bahasa skrg KEREK dgn aku. waa saje je buat gimik tadi derr. terkejut ? tak payah nk menipu terkejut. nampak beno nipunye. maka kalau bukan psl org lain dh semestinya lah pasal aku kan ? heh , syok sendiri.
ni ada satu cerita(satu jelah.kang byk juling pulak mata korg baca kan):

masa pergi berfoya-foya dgn alia , dkt TS haritu tiba2 terjumpa pulak kwn alia , Inche Fauzan. actually fauzan pun kwn aku gak. kitaorg sama sekolah rendah dulu. tp bila msk secondary school aku pi jalan empat , dia dgn alia pi jln dua. so tu yg dh lama tak jumpa fauzan tuu sampai aku pun tk kenal dia dh. masa sekolah dulu pun tak pernah ckp ngn dia. dia pun tk perasan aku sama ngn dia dulu. org hot kan fauzan mana nk perasan aku ni. ceyy. so bila jumpa kat TS haritu mcm OH HAI FIRST TIME JUMPA U. then balik terus dia add fb aku. then IM then seterusnya texting. okay aku tau takperlu cerita kan ? pastu tiba2 dia membuat satu confession yg jujur. ceyy mengelabah gila ayat. dia bukan confess apa pun. aku je hiperbola. dia ckp " u tau dak, masa i first time jumpa u kat TS haritu muka u serious mcm tak puas hati je. i pun pelik apehal minah ni mcm nk mkn i je. dhlah time tu i npk u tgh beli beg dgn alia. i nk tegur pun kena tunggu alia hbs beli beg"

utk men-defence kan diri aku pun ckp " EIIII MANA ADA. U TAK BAIK DOE BUAT CERITA" actually kan , meh ceq nk habaq perkara sebenor. bukan fauzan sorg je yg pernah ckp mcm tu kt aku. in fact aku rasa almost everyone yg aku baru mula nk kenal then nnt bila dh okay jd kawan semua akn ckp benda yg sama dkt aku. watafakk lah kn ? serious shit muka aku sombong ? sombong mcm mana ? maka dgn kemusykilan tuu aku tlh menyuruh adik aku amik gmbr candid tk kira bila2. dh nama pun candid kan , mesti lah tk smpt nk senyum buat muka bajet comel dgn pout dgn segala ke-fake-kannya tuu. then bila dh amek aku tgk , homaigad , serious ke muka aku mcm ni kt luar ? gilaa muka ketat. patut lah pun semua ckp mcm tu. patut lah pun aku kena cop sombong dgn senior dulu. patut lah pn patut lah pun. haishh. abhsgdjsijnashj

maka dgn ini aku nk membuat statement keterangan yg menyatakan bahawa sebeno nya , mike ni tak sombong seperti yg dema sangka. meh aku tunjuk sumthing kat hampa :

Pehe dok apa yg aku cuba sampai kan ? what i mean is *this is for anybody who haven't meet me yet.preparation anda masa akn dtg.  janganlah nnt bila korg first time jumpa aku dh ckp aku sombong. OH COME ON DUDE! jgn senang sgt nk judge org because YOU NEVER KNOW ME. mmg aku agk tidak friendly dgn org yg aku tak kenal. itu aku admit. tp bukan sb tak ingin nk kwn ke apa. tp sebab aku segan agk pemalu*tuihh bajet ayu suda. tp serious doe , aku mmg bukan org yg reti nk buat the first move dlm friendship ke apa ke. mmg npk mcm katak bawah tempurung and i try to change it skrg.tp for the meantime that's just me. so DO TALK TO ME :) kalau korg jenis yg byk ckp, gilagila, sawan, gelak mcm kak limah semua then we're in :) heh

meh aku bg contoh gmbr candid huduh sombong. ni dh kira aku pilih yg terbaik antara yg terburuk. now , i want you to be the judges

ni muka tgh mkn tuttifruiti.byg kan lah patutnya muka gembira sb dpt mkn the royal velvet. tapi ni ? -,-

take care lovies <3

FAHAM .

AGAIN , aku tulis pasal stupid thing. sory. kalau menyampah sila tekan button X dekat belah kanan atas. Jangan risau , sumpah aku tak marah kalau korg tekan. aku faham korg menyampah dan meluat. nnt next entry aku promise tak buat lagi dah. but seriously skrg ni aku rasa mcm HMMMM. ntah. tak tau rasa sedih ke menyampah ke. dak tau. tp probably skrg aku rasa aku sedih. sb aku rasa dari tadi aku duk tahan nk nangis.oh shoot , i cried. *tampar diri sendiri sb nangis benda bodoh. silakan 123. lepas aku dpt tau psl "this thing"*act, baru dpt tau tadi tu pun nasib baik lah terbaca kan. before this aku tau jugak psl benda ni. tp ntah tak rasa papa pun. aku rasa mcm "alahh , tkpe lah. in life there are ups and down. probably skrg dia tgh down lah wehh. cuba lah fhm member derr" tp bila aku ternampak benda ni tadi , aku rasa okayy aku mmg jahat. definitely everybody is on the other side. obvious kut. kut lah. maybe sb i'm in that cycle so sb tu lah aku sensitive sikit KOTT. ah , tak kisah lah. tp yg penting agk terasa. bcs everybody mcm like bagi semangat tanya semua kat the other side. tp dorg tak tanya pulak kat aku. maybe they think i'm fine sb i didn't show any signs about how i feel so bad right now. sb mmg korg nmpk aku MACAM happy. macam je weyy. yg tau pun pidot sorg. so aku AMAT berterima kasih lah ada kwn mcm tuu.maybe jugak sb aku tk share benda ni dkt siapa2 esp mereka. so i can't blame them kan ? soal muka mmg lah boleh tipu doe. dulu bila korg tanya jwpn aku mesti mcm takde perasaan amek remeh je benda ni. and everytime korg nk ckp psl benda ni mesti i tried to change the subject kan ? tak tau lah korg perasan ke tak. and bila aku ternampak benda tuu , aku mcm terfikirlah , apalah yg korg ckp psl aku duhh(*okay kawan.benda ni mmg tak baik.jgn ikut.trust your buddy kalau nk friendship last longer.) sb korg memang tak pernah tanya apa aku rasa. oh maybe adalah dulu masa benda ni mula jadi.tapi skrg mana ada dah kan. tp honestly sedih sb aku hilang sorg kawan who i used to call bestie. memang memang aku tau aku npk keras hati batu. tp tu luaran babe. aku dh try utk think positive.buang ego selfish semua.fikir kwn nk tolong. but sad to be told , it DOESN'T work. each day rasa mcm makin haihhh , susahnya. and ONCE AGAIN , to make it clear aku tak marah benci pun dekat mereka. THIS I SWEAR ! cuma sedih and agk jealous.AGAK je okay bukan MEMANG. i tried to figure out mcm mana nk find the way out from this thingy thing. tp buntu. BUNTU. btw , jgn risau aku tetap sayang mereka sampai bila2. mereka kwn dunia akhirat.*insyaAllah.Sampai bila2 pun aku akan tetap bangga ckp aku ada kwn mcm korg.SERIOUS. Even death can't take my love towards them :) tkpe , aku faham korg nk bulid kan semangat dia balik. so that dia boleh think positive about the future rather that thing about stupid thing. Don't worry , i'm fine here.

and one more thing , even kalau korg dh baca please jgn tanya dan jgn pertikaikan kenapa aku tulis benda ni. yeah mmg aku tau aku npk selfish dlm entry ni.but everything ends here okay. tutup buku lama bukak buku baru yg comel jual kat mph tuhh. and aftr this i will act like normal mcm entry ni tak wujud. cukup aku dh cerita semua kat sini. terima kasih.

take care lovies <3

HAI ORANG BARU :)

mesti korg cakap kan " woii minah ni entry bawah bukan main sedih jiwang semua. entry ni gaya mcm tkde feeling langsung dh dkt entry bwh "
and aku akan ckp balik "woii lek ah derr. lu baru baca title entry. belum baca habis lagii derr"
lps tu mesti korg segan kan dh pandai2 buat judgement awal2 ? hha , jkjk.

okayy so lets start it here. memandangkan sejak kejadian putus itu*pffftt ,terasa hebat BM aku ! , almost everyday aku duk ckp kat diri sendiri MOVE ON MOVE ON. rasa mcm benda tuu je yg aku tau nk ckp skrg. and bila aku tgk justin bieber dgn selena gomez *pftt , aku tau contoh ni mmg common. tp suka aku lahh. bieber lyn selena sweet je. and dgr lagu the rhythm of love mmg secara automatic nyaa aku NAK ada boyfie baru. tp not that desperate lah sampai baru kenal and org yg aku tak suka pun nk pergi get along jugak. maaf maaf. that's so not ME ! TETAPI , bila melihatkan org lain happy hidup je tak dak boyfriend, then aku terfikir di benak otak ni kenapa aku tak boleh jugak kan ? dorg tu hormone happy lebih dari aku kaa ? well , if u wanna talk about the way they handle and control their emotion , mmg aku salute dgn mereka-mereka tuu. i wanna build that strong independent spirit slowly :) so friends , do support me going thru this ;)) ceyy , ayat mcm mati laki je doe. MENGADA.

and frankly speaking , aku rasa i'm ready for it. hoyeahh. ready to have the freedom-single life and yet ready to meet the new one :) so , will see mana yg datang dulu. silakan anda berdua lumba lari ke dalam fikiran ni. tgk siapa menang. thee :B but if i do meet the new guy , i think i wanna keep it untied at least until my birthday. because i think after three years having relationship *the puppy loves is an exception otayy, aku mcm tak bg space to something yg hmm , idk what it is. heh , mengada nya kau nk letak syarat pulak. terus lari balik laki tu.. heh , nak lari balik ? SILAKAN. dgn tapak kaki sekali aku tadahkan.

okayy dah sudah tulis benda mengarut nii. oh lupa nk ckp. actually aku nk dedicate kan benda ni untuk kawan aku*well , aku harap kau tau benda ni untuk kau. since you wanna avoiding me right ? it's okayy. i'm fine with it as long as kau boleh lupa benda lama :) fyi , aku dh baca blog kau. so , the truth to be told , i'm happy you're going to take the big step forward in your life. so , goodluck buddy ! i'm praying for you. moga kau jumpa someone much much better. tapi mmg serious ckp tak tipun punya , kau mmg kawan yg sgt2 baik. a good listener *itu paling aku suka. tapi kau tau kan , falling in love can't be forced. it happens naturally without you realizing it sometime :)

haii , saya nak belajar naik basikal. walaupun tak pandai , saya nk belajar kayuh slowly. sama lah mcm saya nk belajar move on. take it slow and easy. pftt , hbt dak perbandingan konkrit aku ?

sudah lah megarut. take care lovies <3

NO TITLE FOR THIS BLOG ENTRY.

dear boy ,

are you doing good so far ? hows ur mother ? tell her i miss to have a chat with her :) oh and yeah i miss your sister too. dah nk kawin kan your sister. I'm happy for her. eh ,I don't know why i'm writing this. i have promised myself not to write anything about you in the blog like what i used to do in my previous blog. oh , maybe tomorrow going to be your birthday. WAIT. it's already 0142 am. so its already 20April. your birthday. soo HOREYY , HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ! have a blast :) i knw you have the-most-awesome friend in the world yg mmg akn buat surprise celebration bagai for your birthday. well , you should be glad to have them around you. sorry this year i can't join them to plan for the surprise like what i used to do 3 years ago. mlm birthday u mmg ariff busy bagai text i semua nk tny mcm mana. well , dh bestfriend dia pny birthday kan. and i'm happy to know ariff. So , i hope u are doing good so far :) with your study, your music , your family and perhaps your girlfriend. err , i don't how to write this but i really wanna write so bad. i don't how would it be if i talk to you. i think i will burst into tears. so i think i should write it here. i hope you read this or maybe ariff will ask you to read this. idk. i won't text or call you to wish your birthday. No , i won't do that. i hope u know how difficult would it be for me since u used to be the only person who can understand and comforts me. and yeah i won't cry. or at least i will try not to cry.and if i do i will wipe my own tears. i won't let you to do that for me anymore. I'm sorry if i sound so cheesy , but i can't stop myself. i know u said we should move on. you said u wanna let me move on with some other guy who much much better than you. who have this really bright future so he won't let me down in the future and can be a very good father to my children. aahh , why u said that ? i'm happy when i'm with u. doesn't mean that when you are not doing good in ur study u can have a bright future right ? we can face it together. we can face the world like heroes together. we had promised about it right ? but u broke the promised. i know we're getting better now. i hope so we're getting better. i hope i can talk to you if not as a girlfriend to a boyfriend, as a friend will be fine for me. btw we are friends right ? but all of this take times for me. i know when i met you about one month ago , i haven't talk to you that much. when ariff went to the toilet*(idk dia betul pergi toilet ke tak. but i hope he didn't lied ) only two of us left , i hope i can't run away or pretend i'm sick and need to go home that very soon. i know you tried to talk to me. i know you tried to make jokes so that i can laugh instead of doing nothing on my phone. u said "asl u tak gelak. i miss your laughed you knw ?" and that time mmg i taleh tahan lagi , i cried. yess , in front of you. and you saw that right ? then suddenly you wiped my tears , but when i realised you are no longer mine , i push away your hand. and you said i'm sorry. its okay dude. but then you  said " heyy , even though u are no longer mine. but i still can't see u cried. jgn mcm ni. i cared bout you. we've promised right to move on ?" then  i said " mana ada i nangis. td mata i pedih lah masuk habuk sapa suruh you nk lepak oldtown ni. mmg byk habuk lah kan tepi jalan ni. "
i lied. yes i lied. and you knw i lied " you lied. i'm sorry if i make you cry. but please listen hear" then i saw ariff came terus i buat muka excited panggil dia ckp mknn dia dh sampai. padahal makanan dia mmg dh sampai bfr dia pergi toilet lgi kan ? i knw i look so stupid. SORY.

err btw , i think i should stop writing this cheesy things. siapa yg menyampah minah ni jiwang nak mampus , maaf ye. i have feelings too. perempuan mmg emosi. HHA. see, i can laugh now. i'm fine. eiii tipunya kau ni. and to you , happy birthday again !

its already 2.25 and i'm off to bed. take care lovies <3

Interview rockss !

that's true. when you get nervous , just kick it out from your mind

hey dude
 if you have read my blog entry below , then you will know why i'm writing this :) just wanna share how is it going :D
okay first was the registration. duhh sampai awal gila aku. interview 9.30 tapi kul 8.50 aku dgn mak aku dh terpacak kat sana. untunglah sampai aku org first register and kena interview. untunglah  nervous gilaa.*okay dush.cut the crap yoo. bila dh habis register ada sorg kakak suruh aku ikut dia. okay then aku dh start nervous dah. aftr salam-salam and kiss my mum and ask her to pray for me i went with that kakak. kitaorg naik lif pergi 3rd floor. the registration on the 1st floor , fyi. then she took me to this room.dekat pintu tu tulis lecturer hall. aku punya lah ingt dh nak masuk interview.smgt je curik tgk cermin tadi. sekali aku nmpk ada kertas kat satu meja ni. the aku nampak "write an essay why you want to be a doctor" duration 15 mins, 200 words. DANGGG. aku pusing blkg. DAMMNNN , pintu dah tutup. takleh nk lari. so theres no turning back. aku pun tulis lah essay. duh lama gila tak tulis essay. aku rasa dh berkarat dh BI aku. ahhh , tibai sudah. and that time my handwriting was so so so BAD ! aku harap dorg tak paham. thanks -,-' so aftr 15mins she came back and took my paper. then she asked me to wait until my name being called. aku pun menunggu dan menunggu. then ada sorg laki masuk. and aku bermonolog "ni kut org yg interview. baik buat muka comel kat dia." so aku pun buat muka comel mcm doraemon. dush. then another guy masuk. okay yg ni handsome. dush lagi. sila buat muka comel lagi farah. then  he said to the first guy "okay let's do this.Bring it onnn!" and from that aku tau nama aku dh nk kena panggil dah since aku org first.

then after my name being called , i knocked the door. then when i heard "masuk" , i came in and say "assalamualaikum. hello :)" okay betul lah dua encik ni panel aku. untunglah buat muka comel tadi. dush farah. focus doe. then after they asked me to take my seat aku pun duduk.
okay farah , please introduce ur self. baru je aku nk bukak mulut org tu ckp balik " oh i forgot to intorduce myself, my name is ______ *aku tk ingt nama dia. i will teach u biology and this is prof.hamdan he will teach biology too. so aftr i nodded then i start to introduce myself.
so here are what i have been asked :
1. why we should pick you
2.why you choose this place
3.what koko activity you have involve in ur school ?
4. as a muslim , how we want to develop ourself to become a good muslim
5. tell me about homeostasis *DANGG , aku lupa benda ni. sumpah blank lupa
6.okay takpe , tell me about immune system *pheww aku ingt
7.then he asked me to asked professor hamdan any ques related to biology.
DANGG aku blurr gilaa tak tau nk tanya apa. then aku belasah je tanya how adrenaline effect us when we get nervous ?
then he asked me back " oh do you get nervous now ?"
and i said " i think i am nervous. because i'm sweating. *try to make joke. luckily they laughed :) pheww
okay so this is how it was :
prof : first , where adrenaline being produce ?
me : erk adrenal gland ?
prof : that's good. where is adrenal gland located ?
me : somewhere near the kidney. oh , above the kidney near medulla to be specific.
prof: that's good. so what triggers adrenal to produce adrenaline ?
me: brain ?
prof: partially correct.
me : the receptor ?
prof: okay good, then how can the brain send the signals ?
me: thru impulses ?
prof: that's good. so what are the changes happen ?
me: the heartbeat increase.people get sweating.oxidation occur ?
prof: okay good. why there are such change ?
me: to produce energy ?
prof: why energy need to be produce?
me: because we need to cope with the situation
PHEWW , then they said this big "AAAAA , THAT'S GOOD"
akhirnya berhenti jugak tanya. perghh sumpah aku tak expect dia nk tanya benda ni. and you knw what , i get nervous everytime they said "that's good. because i afraid i can't answer the next question.
so moral of the story : be prepare mann !
and i hope this can help me for mara interview this 28 APRIL. pfftt , btw alhamdulillah i'm on the list !

okay then. take care loveis <3

COMPETITION

T__T  speaking about competition , now i'm really scared to go for the interview. khamis ni which is LUSA. LUSA okay , i hv to go fr CUCMS interview. AMMAAA , boleh tak masuk tak payah interview ? hak tuihh. mmg tak lah farah oiii. bukan kau sorg je yg pandai farah. ingat tu. yg straight A's je dah beriban. so mmg kena compete dan struggle lah nak masuk or nak dpt scholarship ni. and this thursday jugak shortlist nama interview MARA will be out too. oh uh , i hope i'm on the list. GAHHH , this thursday will be the BIG day for me i guess. and speaking about interview , siapa tak cuak weh. menipu gilaa lah kan tak cuak. kena speaking. buat depa tny soalan pelik pelik mcm teacher duk cerita mau aku nak lari keluar je time tu. dah la english aku bertebaran. kalau nervous aku tak tau rupa apa dah. haritu teacher marziah ada cerita interview kalau interview dorg tanya apa structure red blood cells. then the answer is haemoglobin. then depa tanya lagi dlm haemoglobin tu ada apa. the answer is iron. so as you can see , gila mendalam soalan. dah lah aku dh lama tak bukak buku. PFFTTTT. and yeah skrg ni depa duk cari candidates yg byk bwt kerja social. jadi volunteer ke apa ke. uh uh.

okay , tak tau nak tulis apa dah. TAKUT FIKIR KHAMIS NI.

take care , loves <3

physical beauty

this physical beauty topic has been loitering around my mind after i read beastly for the fourth time. betul waa tak tipu. sampai mimpi waa dibuatnya. so i guess i must show this topic the way out from my mind so that i can continue dreaming about handsome guy. dushdush. and i think the one and only way is by writing this on my blog.

well people , physical beauty is all about our appearance. how pan-asia we are. how flawless our skin are. how sexy our body. and i guess there are still a long list to say.

and what i'm trying to point out is should we judge people by their physical beauty ? is it fair for them ? come on people. judging people isn't that easy.

if you had read this beastly or watch the movie*i think reading the novel will drive you into deeper perspective. kyle kingson has everything in this world. he has all the looks , intelligence and wealth. in a simple word , he is every girls dream boy. but he has a cruel streak. he teasing other school mates who are "different". different here means who are no very beautiful or handsome or not rich like him.

so one night his fellow school mate , kendra hilferty who is the witch cast a spell on him which make his life turn upside down. the cast has stripe off his handsomeness to a monster look. knowing that he will not be the fans for everyone who admiring his look anymore, he decide to hide from everyone. but being hideous person was really tough and so hard to this popular and social guy. in the mean time , he is given two years to break the spell. as per spells fairy tale , the only way to break the spell is to get someone to love him just the way he is ! yeah the monster look.

so here's the journey of adrian*he changes his name began. he start to appreciate people and things around him. starting from his maid , magda and then his tutor , will and finally his true love , linda. he also start to appreciate roses which he was thought cheap and not beautiful. *he was so stupid because can't see the true beauty of roses. pity kyle. btw ,to show his appreciation towards roses , he build greenhouse that full of roses with many colours and names in his garden.

so yeah in this movie and novel , i admire linda taylor(vanessa hudgens) very very much. and at the end of the story , i admire kyle(pettyfer) too because finally he realize that physical beauty cannot buy the true love that he really really craving for.

people , remember this : if there's a beast, maybe he's just a regular human being with a skin condition problem or something. maybe he just needs some understanding from you. maybe we judge people too much by their looks because it's seem easier than seeing what's really important inside the person.

the conclusion is : if u have to choose between this really really handsome guy like alex pettyfer or this really really ugly monster boy like *(hmm you name it. oh no. you shouldn't name it. that's so mean to judge them that way right ?) what i'm trying to say is if you really have to choose , then look for what they have inside not outside of them. to make it easy be friends to BOTH !

take care , loves :)

hello world. i'm back :)

hey hey. april mari ! so do you make any resolutions ? what's on your list ?  i'm sorry for being MIA from this cyberworld for around one week jugak lah kan ? duhh as if u care lah kan ? yeahh kepergian saya disebabkan demam. ceyy demam je pun nak kecoh ka ? yaww woot woot , demam aku temperature sampai 40 tak reti nak turun turun.i can't walk because i felt tired easily. naik tangga pun dh semput aku rasa. i can't speak because if i do it will turn to be me coughing nostop. it's been really tough you knw.  last-last aku fikir doctor tu yg salah. tu lah sape suruh tak bagi antibiotic awal awal. kan senang. *okay. tak baik salahkan doctor. they have done their best kan. Sorry doctor(s) :) *attempt nak buat suara cute tp tak cute pun. jadi suara doraemon ada lah. thee :D dan dikesempatan ini jugak lah dema nak berterima kasih kepada nurse yg dh tolong lapkan ape yg telah aku keluarkan tempoh hari di klinik doktor hana. ampun kak mmg tak leh tahan time tu. dan kepada mummy dan daddy ku yg dgn sabar dan tenang melayan kerenah anak sulung yg mmg mengada ni. dan kepada dia, rakan saya, ye anda yg dah pass license tu sb sudi hantar bubur mcD bila saya kata saya mengidam nak makan. thanks yaww. dan kepada rakan2 yg bg support. thank you sooo much. *hesh. dah mcm thanks giving punya speech. i'm sooryy guys. ter-cheesy !

*the good news is now i'm 40kg. ada hikmah jugak kan demam ni :)

so what's on my list. lets cekidaut yaww :

1. interview scholarship mara which i really scare to death. duhh
2. moneymoneymoney $$$$$$
3. birthday bestie ku , raihan izzati !
4. birthday aizat 
5. sabah 
6. hari anugerah KB
7. i want new shoeS !

emm dah dah lah tu. tok sah tamak sgt. simpan untuk may pulak.
take care loves <3