there will never be a goodbye ;)

okay friends , lets make it easy bcs i really don't know how to put this into words. well yeah , saya bukan munsyi dewan yg terror bab2 ayat ni.

hmm , skrg kn its the time for most spm leavers (*bcs some of them already started the college life bfr result keluar lagi.genius kan?) to make another big step in their life. yeap , the college life. tak kisah lah dpt mana, matriks ke upu , it's just the same that we are going to study AGAIN. and this time things gonna be tougher and we need to be smarter ;) so yeah , the matriks student and uitm students were already registered last monday. so before that mmg byk lah farewell pny reunion. everybody is wishing goodbye take care good luck all the best keep in touch bla bla bla. so yeah , siapa tak sedih kan ? but this things are really important in our life right ? don't worry lah. kita bukan duduk zaman batu yg kalau nk contact kena guna utusan burung merapti takpun bagi signal asap kan ? we do have phones and facebook. bila free time boleh texting calling and facebook-ing kan ? going to the new places , one thing is certain we gonna have the new experiences. experiences that make some of us eager to explore and some afraid(mostly yg dpt jauh takut sb homesick). aku fhm perasaan korg. don't worry. homesick tu normal okay. lama2 korg akan bljr nk adapt with the situation and all your tears will dry. and kalau ada yg kata"eiwww, mengadew lah kaww nk homesick pulak.chillww sudeww" well shut up lah rempit. kau takde perasaan rindu mak bpk ke ? i know things not gonna be the same. but there are other thing in this world we need to see , we need to explore kan? sb tu kena move on. and i wrote this actually because i wanna dedicate it to my best girlfriend;

try to find raihan and me. !

haha dude , kena tipu. yess might find me but not raihan. she's not in the picture becasue she wasn't here. heh , she was represnting the school for handball competition. THEEE :) so yeah , why i wrote about her? what are so special about her ? well yeah , she's my bestfriends since i was in the kinder garden and the 12 years friendship is still been counting. harap2 sampai bila2 lah kn jd bestfriend. and thru those years mmg byk yg kitorg share. eventhough mase f4 kita separate. aku msk mrsm and kau stay jln4 but i'm glad kita tak lost contact and still keep in touch mcm biasa. and i'm glad that our mom really make a good friends right ? soon she gonna make her way to achieve her dream. doctor. and specialist in kanak2. yeah , we share the same ambition too :) mula2 dia dpt offer sama dgn aku dkt UM and i was really happy like i wanna jump all the day ;) but the bila result mara keluar , thing was change. she got the offer but not for me. dpt offer buat medic kt middle east for 6 years(watta lama weyy) and yg buat aku lagi culture shock is she gonna fly on this september. yg lain semua buat foundation Alevel at least one year dlu. tapi dia lagi 3 months nk fly and 30 ni register kat shah putra kuantan persediaan 3 bulan. at first mmg dia dilemma nk pergi ke tak , but after doing istikharah and thought that this chance dtg once in her life time so no reason she should refuse it right ? bak kata pengat "dh sugar daddy nk sponsor". she decided to go. i'm happy for her. i mean like yeahh. as long as dia happy aku happy. so i gonna miss her like hell here. dulu masa aku msk mrsm baru 3 months tak jumpa pun mcm "eh gemuk nya kau eh kurus lah. eh asl ni asl tu." bygkan 3 months pn dh mcm tu ni lagi lah 6 tahun? imagine it 0.0 no , i can't figure it out how. i know at least once in a year kau akn balik tgk bangi. kata nnt mesti rindu bangi en. so insyaAllah we will meet up :)

i know things will not gonna be the same without you. you don't have to give a damn about something that can push you down. just do your own thing and make sure it works :) there will never be a goodbye in this friendship*unless if you wanna throw me away from your life. all the best :)

current mood -,-

hai hari ni IC saya hilang. IC hilang masa hari saya nk pergi bukak account bank islam. yeah , last minute preparation. heh , esok saya nak buat ic baru. kbye. terima kasih -,-

so current mood :BENGANG !

Ya Allah permudahkan lah segala urusan ini ;)

Let's prepare :)

SALAM !

aku rasa mcm  dh lama tak update blog padahal baru 4 hari je doe. lame -,- well , sory lah derr internet rumah waa lembs mcm siput and nk update selalu tak sempat. heh , kepala pak hang lah farah tak sempat. tidur je mmg lah tak sempat. dush.

so past few days , hmmm past 3 nights to be exact , i had a nightmare. bukan those stupid typical nightmare yg kena gigit hantu ke , rumah masuk pencuri ke , takpun lg chibeng mimpi boyfren curang. aku pelik asal org consider tu as a nightmare. huh  :/ to the hell with that , so i want na share about the nightmare. well , jgn risau nightmare aku taleh buat box office film pun. tapi mmg sumpah scary lah.

so i had a nightmare dimana aku mimpi the world has come to the end. in other word , KIAMAT ! mmg tahap takut tu aku taleh cerita lah, plus aku takut nk cerita sb it's a sin kan kalau kita gambarkan hari kiamat tu. everything is clear in the Al-Quran and who am i lah kan nk tambah2 semua ? and in my nightmare tu mmg segala mcm jenis manusia ada. mmg betul lah kan apa yg Allah dh cakap. yg tenang ada yg tak tentu arah ada. and masa tu mmg betul apa yg islam dh ajar kita , masa tu takde sorg pun amek port pasal kauu. everybody is doing their own thing and for those yg byk dosa tu beriya2 seek for the forgiveness. and boleh tak aku nk ckp something ? tapi jgn salah phm. dlm mimpi tu aku mimpi dajal bangkit dari laut. betul ke ? aku try google pasal dajal semua tapi tak jumpa pulak psl yg dia bangkit dari laut. yg aku jumpa dia deform , mata kiri takde. mata kanan hitam. and mmg scary rambut kerenting. nevermind , if you wanna know you can just wiki it. aku baca kat situ lah tadi.

so korg nk tau condition aku dlm mimpi tu mcm mana ? i was with my mum pergi shopping kot and suddenly bunyik kecoh2 kat luar. so headed outside and boleh plak tiba2 barack obama dtg kat kitaorg. what on earth is that ? so he took me to the castle. aku jumpa PRINCE WILLIAM DGN KATE MIDDLETON. tapi masa tu kate dh tua mmg tak lawa lah weh. tapi prince william still sama mcm dia yg skrg. PELIK.*just cut the crap. masa tu mmg aku takut sangat sangat. aku nangis semua and masa tu aku tahu nk bertaubat pun tak guna. pintu taubat dah tutup. masa ada masa dulu duk leka sgt kann. memang rasa tu menyesal gila gila gila. aku boleh pulak kata "mama , ara menyesal sgt tak solat subuh tadi " and that time my mum cool gilaa tau. dia tenang je it's like she's ready. well i hope so. sape tanak mak dia masuk syurga and dipermudahkan segala perjalanan dia masa kiamat nnt kan ? heh , kalau boleh aku pun nk jd condition mcm mak aku tu. tenang tak takut semua.


so bila aku bangun, DANGGG MEMANG TERLEPAS SUBUH. yeah , aku phm maksud mimpi tu. JANGAN TINGGAL SOLAT KALAU ANDA TANAK MERANA KAT AKHIRAT and that nightmare aku rasa Allah nk bagi peringatan kat aku supaya bersedia prepare kan diri dgn amalan2 semua. npk sangat amalan aku tak cukup kan. yeah , i know -,- aku pun bukan baik sgt but i try to improve myself. so do you kan ? sama2 lah kita prepare diri kita okayy :)

p/s: ada masa , do free yourself pergi youtube tgk lah video IniAnwarHadi. serious dia awesome sangat and he got the point everytime dia post video. at least korg gain something bila tgk video dia. and i like his style. i mean cara dia nk attract org nk buat baik. it works cara dakwah dia :) *heh, aku dh start berangan nak laki mcm diaaa. tuihhhh perasan.

After All

just a short update.

after all the highs and lows , i think i have started to accept the fact*even though it's hurt. but at least i learned something. even though it's hard but i'm trying. move on in my life rather than thinks about something that i didn't get. the most important thing are my future and my dream. no matter where we're studying it's only us can retrieve our dreams. kalau ada rezeki ada lah kan. kadang2 Tuhan nak menguji. All happens for goods. and nothing much in this world that i need other than my superduper cool family and awesomeness friends ! they always have my back ;) so friends , congratulations for those yg dapat scholarship. all i can say you are lucky enough to have the chance so grab it. make me proud of you. and for those yg tak dapat like me*sobs :( sama2 lah kita duduk malaysia tmpt sendiri. meh kita jaga malaysia untuk depa yg pi overseas.

well , yeah i got macbook from my father. thank you abah :* hehe , probably there shouldn't be any problem berebut nak online with my adik and lepas ni IM tolong lah jgn buat hal lagi -,-

take care <3

TIRED

uhuh , i'm terribly tired. i slept at 4.30a.m yesterday and i woke up around 9 or sumthing. so can you imagine slept for 4 hours only ? i know for some people can deal with it but seriously i can't. i usually slept for 8-12 hours . hee , i know what you wanna say. i am the hardcore sleepyhead. *nahhh , you can laugh if you want to. so i went out with my ex-schoolmate yesterday and we ARE having A LOTS OF FUN. like SERIOUSLAAAYY. i miss them like hell. soon we'll make our separates way. some will go for matrik and some got offer to study aboard and some will be doing their asasi. so no more having fun like what we used to be. everybody is growing up and more matured than ever. the guy become more handsome tough and so whatever. the ladies are much more prettier and stylo. everybody is trying to be maria elena or hana tajima. no more wearing the school uniform. at least my mind now is full of colour when i meet them. no more seeing the blue,white and peach.duhh of course lah kan ? well to the hell with that because let the memories will be ours forever not yours. and then of course after a great day will come the tiring part. it was tiring with the ktm stuff where i have to stand for 9 stations and get tired after giggling all the day. so when i got back , i had my dinner watching AF with my mummy and suddenly i felt like i wanted to make the goodbye video for my one and only alifa shahira. so i tried to bring back those memories and show some stuff in that video. i've post it to my facebook (here's the link if you want to watch it) so theres no need to explain more. let's the video does the talking. and this morning i've promised my sista to take her out for weekend outing at JJ seremban. so we went to have our lunch at nasi arab damsyik first. and the food are freaking sedap dohh. went to JJ, as what have been expected , theres no parking left for us :( and my sista still wanna go JJ instead of tesco sb dia nk pergi mph. lepas pujuk and i said nk belanja coolblog dkt tesco then she said fine tesco. we headed to tesco. pun ramai jugak org -,- tak paham aku. so the rest is history. and all the way back to home , i slept and then continue it bila sampai rumah until 9p.m. 0.0 elokk benoo lah tuu tidur masa maghrib. but seriously i'm tired. i went out without dress up like what i used to do including the b.b cream and the lip ice because i was too lazy . and my sista said i look pale withou wearing any of that. but at least , i have my natural look isn't ?

give your skin the natural look sometime :)

Sometimes I do look stupid

 well , bukan nk bukak cerita aib sendiri but this is just something to share moga2 korg tak lah jd mcm aku. and one more thing , i wrote not to impress but to express. i don't wanna impressed you guys like "dude, i can cook kuey teow kung fu while doing kung fu style.haiyak haiyak" and you will impressed like whoaa seriously ?  in the end you'll know the answer: i lied -,-

this time i said i am stupid in terms of bab masak. aku mmg rasa gila dumb bangang bongok because i don't know anything psl masak. eh kejap , bukan lah tak tau langsung mcm zero. i do know sikit2 lah. i know kuali apa , periuk apa , senduk apa. tu aku tau lah. well mesti korg ckp tuu je ke ? well , mmg tu je pun aku tau -,- and kalau masak aku reti goreng telur and masak nasik. nak tau tak yg goreng telur ada cili bawang semua tu aku br tau mcm mana nk buat padahal benda tu paling simple yg org dh expert msk kata. aku bljr buat benda tu pun sb dh kemaruk sgt nk mkn. sanggup call mama belajar thru the phone. siap tanya mama nk goreng minyak berapa byk semua. well , yg buat aku tak suka and takut nk msk sb minyak ah. nnt kan kalau kita goreng pape mesti minyak terpercik kan? duhh , tu aku paling takut. even org lain yg goreng pun , aku yg duk sebelah ni boleh lari 100 meter sb takut. tp skrg dh tak takut dh. kalau nk masuk kan pape dlm kuali ada minyak , aku tutup api dulu. pastu bukak balik api. tu pun bukak api perlahan je.so tade lah terpercik kan. ni bongok ke penakut ?

kalau nk ckp bab ingredient aku halia dgn kunyit pun tak reti beza ? nasib baik aku reti beza cili dgn cili padi sb aku bljr drpd peribahasa "kecik2 cili padi". lagi sedih kat mana mak aku letak semua benda tu pun aku tak amik tau. ada sekali haritu cousin aku dtg dia nk msk. dia tanya mana cili bawang semua. so aku mcm err , cuba check kat fridge*dgn nada tak confident langsung. bukak fridge phewww , nasib baik ada. tadelah segan sgt. tapi ada cili yg dh mesin tu je. bawang mana ? puas aku cari tak jumpa. aduhh. aku pungg call mak aku since cousin aku tu nk msk sotong. aku smgt ah kan nk mkn. kalau tak dh lama aku pesan dominos je. bila call mak aku then mak aku ckp bawang tu mama dh mesin dgn cili sekali. WHATTT ?! sejak bila boleh campur mesin bawang dgn cili. aku mcm gila amazed dgn benda baru ni siap bukak tupperware cili tu nk bau ada bawang ke tak. ADAAAA ! WHOAA. bleh pulak aku pi tanya cousin aku mcm tu. mmg nmpk bongok gila lah kan ?

and one more thing aku tak tahan kalau nk kena bersih kan barang mentah. eh jap , barang mentah ke barang basah ? ah ikut suka kau lah panggil apa. tp maksud aku barang2 mcm ikan ayam tu ah. mak aku pun tak pernah suruh aku buat sb dia tau aku SEMESTINYAAA mengelat. aku lebih rela vacum satu rumah dr kena buat benda2 tu. busuk sehh. nnt tangan mesti bau yuckss. eleh padahal benda tu kau mkn lah farah -,- tak payah nk yuckss sgt. hee , in fact kalau nk suruh aku beza jenis ikan pun aku tak tau. yg aku tau ikan pari je mcm mana rupa dia. kalau ikan lain everytime nk mkn mesti tanya "maa , ni ikan apa" berpuluh kali tanya pun tak jugak ingat nama ikan tuu. haiyoo

huu , aku tau mana2 mak mentua pun mmg pikir dua tiga kali lah nk amik aku jd menantu. HHA. tak payah nk mak mentua sgt lahh , jgn kata tunang, boyprengg pun hang tadak farah. BELAJAR OKAYY. JADI DOCTOR BERGUNAA DULU OKAYY. my aunty always said. awak kata awak nk belajar kat luar negara. tp mcm mana ni tak pandai masak. takkan nk mkn luar je. mana ada mama nk msk ayam msk kurma selalu *aym msk kurma fav dish waa doo heh , jwpn aku mesti ni "alaa , nnt mesti ada house mate ara yg pandai masak." 

so i came into this conclusion : SAYA NAK BELAJAR MASAKKKK !!!

oh btw , hari ni i cooked for my lunch. nak tau tak msk apa ? i masak sambal telur*my mum kata not bad. and ayam goreng. PHEWW , boleh tak nak kata bangga ? mmg bangga sb ni first time, bljr thru the fon dan yg penting TAK HANGUSS OR HANGIT :)

may peace be upon youu <3

MY BAD :\

heyy , i don't what on earth is that ? urghh , i do hate it.

i do appreciate what he did for me. like seriously i do. i don't wanna you, people, to think that i'm the unappreciative beast. i didn't really know what to say. but like yeaaa i felt guilty. i think i need sometime. to think. ALONE. i don't wanna hear you, people, come to me and say "oh come on. he did a lot." well , fyi i'm not that unappreciative beast who didn't think anything about his sacrifices. but somehow i'm wondering why i can't see that ? why and why ? what on earth is going here ?! i usually fall for someone very quickly. but i don't know what happen this time. am i being trauma or phobia or what ? ughh , i feel empty and uncertain bout everything.*ughh, i do hope this feeling blown away soon. i don't wanna give you hope or what. but i really hope we can be friends. you are my friend who really make my day , who make me laugh but after all , please don't push me down. you and the awesome friends already make me feel i'm worth being what i am. so please ? just be friends okay ? oh not , just BEST FRIENDS okay ? because we can go far if we remains as a friend. i'm afraid if we end up as a couple then we break up and what ? oh god,  i just can't imagine losing you in my life. i don't want the history to repeat itself.

but don't worry honey , if we are meant to be , then we are :)

MENTALLY RETARDED

salam. post kali ni nk ckp saya rasa sy dh gila. hormone apa byk sgt buat aku jd hyper ni eh ? is it adrenaline ?

heh , aku rasa skrg ni aku mcm gilaa byk energy and mcm dh tak tau malu skrg. dude lek lu. aku bukan nk ckp tak tau malu yg in terms of buat benda2 yg MEMANG TAK TAU malu. tapi sekarang ni aku mmg jadi hper everytime kalau dengar lagu favorite. aku rasa semua lagu aku suka skrg. nnt bila dgr lagu2 aku jd tak tentu arah.HHA. dia mcm im gonna move my bodihh. angkat tangan hayun tangan. goyang bahu. semua yg kira mcm attempt nk buat dance move yg cool. tapi tak cool pun aku tau. aku bukan mcm maple takpun hmc phlow yg reti nk buat movement yg cool gilak tuu okay senang cerita skrg aku suka dance gaya bodoh2. idk how to put this into words tapi siapa yg dekat dgn aku tahu lah kut. esp cousin dgn bpk aku sb dorg dah byk kali tgk aku buat benda annoying ni. cousin aku gelak gilaa and mesti aku ckp awat tak join buat sama ? dude seriously , the songs make me goes crazy. they said play with the rhythm and beats. so probably sb tu lah aku jd mcm tu kut. duk ikut sgt benda tu. so aku express kan the word "play" tu kepada "dance". ada satu kali aku buat mcm tu masa dlm kereta lepas tu budak kereta sebelah nampak. LELAKI dan HANDSOME kacak bergaya. pastu duk aku syok buat tarian bodoh tu aku pun duk toleh lah kat tingkap. tiba2 lelaki tu TENGOK GELAK dan buat THUMBS UP. aku SEGAN lalu menurunkan badan aku kebawah sikit sikit sampai dia tak nmpk aku dah. lepas tu aku suruh bpk aku merempit dgn laju. segan bongok. nilah org kata hobi gila yg nk cari publisiti. tapi aku TAK CARI PUBLISITI OKAYY. jgn salah phm. ni KEGEMARAN BARU AKU. and yeah skrg aku suka nyanyi kuat2. rasa best gilak lega puas semua. dulu kalau aku nk melalak kuat2 pun kat rumah je tapi skrg tak kira kat mana2. ni baru nama tak tau malu. esp dalam train kan biasa org dgr mp3. dorg kan suka psg kuat2 sampai aku yg duduk coach  sebelah pun boleh dgr. so kalau aku dgr lagu yg aku tau lirik dia aku pun duk join nyanyi sama. dia bukan dengar pun sb dia dgr mp3 dia kuat2. so perhaps i didn't disturb her right ? nasib baik lah aku suka nai coach wanita. jadi takde ah malu sgt kut sb duduk dgn kaum sejenihh. tapi org lain yg dengar aku tak tau lah. tapi aku nyanyi tak pandang org. pandang tingkap sebab biasanya aku berdiri kat pintu -,- tapi aku takde lah nyanyi yg buat macam WOII DENGAR FARAH DAYANA NAK NYANYI NI. aku nyanyi siapa dengar nasib. siapa sakit telinga sila muntah skrg. so far takde yg muntah. maknanya kau nyanyi sedap lah kan ? HHA.

and everytime masuk kereta mesti lah bukak radio kan. aku bukak lah kuat2. kereta myvi yg bercc kecik tuu mesti lah kalau kita bukak radio even volume baru 14 pun boleh dgr sampai luar. lepas tu , everytime aku nk hntr adik aku si awan tu, bila nk sampai sekolah je mesti dia perlahan kan radio sampai taleh dgr. baik tutup je dik oii. dia kata "malu lah nnt kalau org dengar sampai luar. mcm nk show off je nnt org ingat" aku balaih balik "hekeleh biarlah dorg. bukan kenal pun. blah lah luu pergi sekolah" lepas tu kalau nk amik dia, dia tak bagi tunggu dia dekat2 dgn gate sb dia kata nnt bunyik radio mesti kuat. dia nk cari kereta kat mana pun senang sb cari bunyik kereta mana punya radio yg kuat tu. then tu lah kereta yg seharusnya dia pergi naik. sengal punya adik. tak reti menghargai org dah tolong hantar.

oh btw , aku skrg suka tengok ole-ole manis punya blog. dorg jual doorgift untuk wedding, baby shower and byk2 lagi. aku pun mulalah berangan nk bagi mcm ni lah mcm tu lah bila kawin nnt. lepas tu nk buat guestbook kawin semua. well org kata "dreams can blow away your heartache" jadi tak salah berangan kan

well ni antara dorg punya product. COMEL KAN? ADORABLE KAN ? sampai tahap NAK GIGIT BAJU KAN ? kepada siapa2 kata tak cute meh sini. aku nk kata ANDA MEMANG TAKDA MATA.TERIMA KASIH.

just when you crossed my mind

oh jangan risau. this is just for a second and proud to say , i'm no longer felt those cheesy thing about him. i laughed at the picture sb gmbr tu dia buat muka. huduh lah u buat mcm tuu. he came crossed my mind when i was just about to view the pictures in my phone. ah , i do save his picture. tapi satu jelah. so what ? salah ke ? whatever it is we are still friends right ?

ini dilakukan untuk mengelakkan salah faham pihak kedua takpun org nak kata saya syok sendiri. PEACE !

"You may not be his first, his last, or his only.He loved before he may love again.But if he loves you now, what else matters ? He's not perfect- you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if he can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to be human being and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break - his heart. So don't hurt him, don't change him, don't analyze and don't expect more than he can give. Smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there." -Bob Marley ;)


do you get it , friend ?

Another Big Steps

oh firstly sorry about my previous entry yg senget benget tu. the words were everywhere and fyi aku dh edit like two times. and tht time pun dh nk almost 4 a.m. So my bed was drumming so loud and asked me to dream with it ;) so panggilan katil mana buleh tolak kan. so i decided to post it jelah no matter how messy it will look like. kalau korg tak paham apa yg aku tulis kat previous entry tu pun takpe. it was just a survey that i did and post it in my blog because i've had run out of idea about what to post.

so the result for upu dah keluar right ? kpd anda-anda yg belum check tu sila lah rajin kan diri pergi check instead of membuang masa layan fb je tapi benda penting tak buat. well , as for me sangat bersyukur lah. i dapat UM asasi sains ayat which also known as PASUM. So now , i tolak matrik and nak pergi sini. LIKE SERIOUSLY nak pergi. what choice do i have now kan ? matrik dgn upu ni jelah. mmg i got several offers from private college and my parents are willing to sponsor the fees. and yeah maybe you can asked me to apply for MARA loan etc. but still aku bangga dgn IPTA kat malaysia. kenapa nak susah2 masuk private college sedangkan dh dpt kerajaan punya kan ? duit mummy dgn abah tu biar lah simpan tuk adik2 aku yg lagi tiga org tuu.

kenapa pilih UM ? bukan kau mintak yg MARA scholarship tu ke ? dude , program mara tu bukan semua org dapat. so the result will be announce on 16th may mengikut kata orang mara lah. tak tau lah kalau dorg nk postpone ke hape enn. yeahh , i've been through the interview which i think was quite good and cool. jambatan tak roboh kott. BANGGA. and masa kat sana lah i felt the longest one minute ever in my life. tulahh dulu tak reti nak mange masa betul2. sedar kah anda sebenarnya one minute tu agk lama kalau kita manfaat kan betul2 ? and frankly speaking i don't wanna put high hopes in this program. bcs i knw competition is LIKE WHOAAA ! i don't wanna hope like setinggi gunung aku dapat benda tuu. i've promised to myself and my mum kalau tak dapat benda ni i won't cry. sedih tu boleh lah. but still i've UM right ? my dreams still can be achieve even tak dapat mara tuu. aftre all , semua nya depends on us jugak yg nak transform kan our dreams into reality isn't it ? so yeahh , here are something to share about what happened yesterday.

it was already 1230pm and i still didn't woke up from my bed. before that , around 9am my mum text me and asked about the UPU. so denga mata kuyu tak larat nak bukak i replied , belum lagi lah maa. pukul 12 nnt. then aku sambung tidoq. pastu bapak ku pulak call and asked me to check now. and i was like "abahhhh , pukul 12 lah. jgn lah kacau ara nk tidur." and my father said "lahh , tak bangun lagi. kwn abah kata dh boleh check" dgn tutup mata , i felt like i talked while i sleep "belum lagi. ara dh check semlam tapi tak boleh.abah nk tidur mengantuk. bye" and then adalah beberapa kali my mum call tapi aku tak angkat. pehh mmg jahat kan ? but then i woke up around 1235 pm and chcek phone ada msg from my father kata " dapat UM asasi sains hayat pun ok" aku blurr fila still didn't get what my father trying to say. aku pun terus pi on pc semua. and benda pertama aku bukak fb -,- aku tau mmg tak senonoh punya perangai. aku pi kat group 3rd batch kb tu nak carik link nk check upu tu sb aku malas nak carik sendiri. senangnya hidup kan ada byk kwn yg bermurah hati bagi segala info ? <3 so dh dpt semua masuk number ic then click the button masuk. tadaaaa , UM asasi sanis hayat. and now baru aku paham apa yg bapak aku cuba sampai kan. pehh expert sungguh sampai baik hati tolong check kan naa. aku pun call bpk aku ckp " eii abah ni sibuk lah check dulu. tak surprise tau" hha , then my father just laughed.

so when i told my mum about this and my mum said "kak long sure nak pergi sini. bila masuk sini then you have to strive tau. no more lepak2 dah sb kak long dah lama lepak2. kena study balik mcm dulu okay ?"
and i said "okayy mummy. don't worry. ara ada paan. nanti paan yg genius tuu boleh tolong ara. lagipun semua genius2 KB masuk sana. raihan pun ada. so i think i will be fine"

soon i will make a big step forward. jadi budak U dah. mcm tak percaya tapi kena percaya. sebab bila umur bertambah kita makin menghampiri alam perkahwinan. GAHHH , KENAPA LATELY AKU SUKA CKP PASAL KAWIN ? GELI TAU DAK ?!

AKHIR KATA : i'm gonna RUN UP this HILL :)

Tell me something I don't know

aahh everything doing good right now :) and after all the highs and lows , i feel a sense of normalcy. aahhh I'm glad and lucky enough !

Have you ever been in love with one of your friends?                      DUHH , Of course but it was the past :)
What the worst relationship you've ever been in?                             i can't say it worst but all i can say it doesn't works well
When was the last time you cried?                                                    does it a matter to you ? honestly it was this afternoon                                                                                                             because i watched a walk to remember ;(
What song are you listening to RIGHT now?                                      a song from MindyGledHill :)
Would you date your ex again?                                                          depends
Are you keeping a big secret right now?                                           i guess no
What was the last lie you told?                                                          i lied to my sister because she will get  mad                                                                                                            when she find out i shop A LOT yesterday !
If you could be anywhere in the world right now where would it be?   take me to ANWAR HADI place. because i wanna tell                                                                                                                  him how OHSOME he is !
Did you get over your ex or do you still love him/her?                         thasha told me to get it over and i'm trying :)
Are you single?                                                                                   err can i yess ? hha , suredo
Have you ever been in a car accident?                                              Praise to Allah. i've never been :)
Have you ever said I love you to someone and not meant it?            it was stupid if i did that. i love you is something i MEANT                                                                                                             IT
If you were ever sent to prison what crime would you have committed?  err i'm not looking forward to committed a crime.                                                                                                                      good ?
Do you believe in true love?                                                              i was underage when i said noo
Are you a good person?                                                                   nobody's perfect. but i believe in the rooms of                                                                                                           improvement :)
Have you ever been in love?                                                            kalau puppy loves kira in love jugak lah kan ?
Do you dislike or hate anyone? If so, why?                                     yess , it was in my previous entry
Is there anything that you have done that you regret so much now? yeap , it was something i did unintentionally. thank you                                                                                                              for  the second chance and glad that i used the chance                                                                                                              wisely
Do you believe in God?                                                                       I BELIEVE IN ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY
Are you faithful in relationships?                                                       its been there years. faithful enough ?
Does everything happen for a reason?                                             yeap. the reason for goods
Have you ever cheated on someone?                                               i'm not an angel :( forgive me
Do you believe in karma?                                                                   YESS. what goes around comes around ! *ahh , now i'm                                                                                                            singing the JT's
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?                A LONG LIST TO SAY
Do you have any enemies?                                                               habaq mai siapa ?
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?                            the sepet eyes. is it pretty to you ?
Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous ?                      HHA , budak2 berchenta mmg lah pernah.
Are you religious?                                                                             iman tak boleh diukur. bertambah dan berkurang.
Have you ever kissed in the rain?                                                     someday i wish i will
Are you happy?                                                                                 HAPPY ENOUGH :)))
Is there someone that's always there for you, no matter what?     OH I HAVE MY SUPERB PARENTS , FAMILY AND FRIENDS                                                                                                           who will always lends their ears and shoulders for free :)
Honestly, do you see yourself as a slut?                                         NOPE
Does anyone hate you?                                                                    kan dah tanya tadi
If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would play you?  is it a crime if i take the duchess of cambridge as                                                                                                                        an actress ?
Who was the last person you cried in front of?                                            hha , my cousin because we watched a walk to                                                                                                                        remember together. but HOW COME SHE DIDN'T                                                                                                                        CRY!
Would you rather have love or money?                                                        with love i can buy money ! percaya tak ?
Have you ever kissed someone who's last name started with an C?          siapa hah ?
Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves?  pernah lah. they called tipu sunat. betul ke?
What's harder: to forgive for someone's wrong doing or to forget?              to forget because we cannot delete the past
Do you believe exes can be friends?                                                             hai exes , we're friends right ?
Do you have a picture of you kissing someone?                                           a picture i kissed my mum !
Have you ever been in a long distance relationship?                                    yeap. and it last longer compare to my ex who i can                                                                                                                        meet like 24/7
Is there/was there anyone in your life that's been a bad influence to you?  i change them to the good-infulencer. CEYY , but                                                                                                                         seriously i don't throw away them form my life
If you could choose how you die, how would it happen?                            KERJA TUHAN we can't expect how would it be. but                                                                                                                        definitely i wanna go in PEACE :)
What's the most important thing in a relationship?                                         LOVE because from that it builds                                                                                                                        trust,honesty,loyalty
Would you rather be hated for who your are or loved for something your not?  being hated because i will proudly say KISAH                                                                                                                                PULAK AKUU ?
Do you regret doing something today?                                                                LACK OF pittis and i REGRET i CAN'T buy the                                                                                                                              shoes that i want SO MUCH.sobs ;(
What would you do if your ex confessed they still had feelings for you?       depends on who he is
Would you ever have sex before marriage?                                                     it's a SIN for muslims. SILA TAHU INI
Are you slowly drifting away from someone?                                                  nope because i won't throw away my friend but                                                                                                                            someone is drifting away from me without A                                                                                                                            word .                                                                                                                            thank you FRIEND
What do you fear the most?                                                                              the most stupid thing that you can kill me with                                                                                                                           the                                                                                                                           gunshot is I'm afraid of cats no matter how                                                                                                                           adorable it is
Are you keeping a big secret right now?                                                         secret of what ?
Have you ever broken someone's heart?                                                        i guess i broke it in unintentionally. TEHEE :)
Have you ever had YOUR heart broken?                                                        sometimes things doesn't runs smoothly ;)
What is something your not excited about?                                                     i'm not excited when i have to wait like forever
Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?                                          depends on the person who does the talking.
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with an A, D, or M?      kau ni stalker ke hape nak tahu ?!
Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?  BANYAK KALI KOTT
Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?                                        hha , pernah lah. byk nya soalan cheesy !
Do you believe in love at first sight?                                                               love at the first sight with how charming he is. but                                                                                                                         not with his heart yet. need to know him first                                                                                                                         yaww <3
How do you vent your anger?                                                                       i eat and babble and eat and babble. can you                                                                                                                        imagine  how ugly it is ?
Do you miss the way things used to be?                                                      OH I MISSED IT SOOO FUCKIN BAD !
Who is the last person you laughed with?                                                   muh cousin because we GIGGLED like DARRRRR !
Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your partner?           SHE WILL NEVER DID THAT. i know them yaww. their                                                                                                                      taste ARE not like mine yaww. HAH
How many kids do you want to have?                                                        enough if i get a pair of boy and girl. but i want the                                                                                                                      boy                                                                                                                      to be the abang. and three is the most. is it okay                                                                                                                      partner ?
Is there drama in your life right now?                                                          i watched a dozen of drama lately and it makes me                                                                                                                      hard to take my bud off from the sofa :)
Are you in love?                                                                                          in love with SHILOH FERNANDEZ
OKAY , take care lovies <3

KALAU NAK CARIK GADUH PUN

hoyy. *pfftt gila tak sopan kau. ah suka lah bengang ni. apehal ni yob ?
ni ada satu cerita yg BENGANG JUGAK LAH aku dengar. cerita daripada bestie ku, si tashadoe mata bulat. hari sabtu kut ke ahad ? eh tak ingat. ah yg penting between dua hari tulah. dia duk call ceq. ceq pun terkojut pasai apa thasha ni duk call ceq. tp at the same time mmg guaa rindu pun nk ckp ngn dia. lama siodd tak jumpa kau. yelah tak lama lagi kau dh pgg title senior aku. heh , pabila berkata mengenai senior ni , aku, eh bukan, KAMI agk bengang dan pelik dan segala perasaan menyampah kat senior kitaorg dulu. senior sewaktu aku f4 dan dia semsetinya f5 lah kan ? tidak perlu sebut nama tp kau rasa sendirilah. sory lah derr. kat maktab dulu boleh lah nk panggil akak-saya. skrg harap maaf. aku-kau je yg aku rasa paling sopan dn baik skrg. ni ceq nak habaq mai , pasai apa hang dok menyibuk masuk campur hal org ? yg dok bergaduh tuh roommate kau dan ex-bf kwn aku dan si thasha doe. tak ke kau rasa pergaduhan tiga segi ni pun dh rumit ? yg kau nk masuk sampai buleh jadi empat segi ni apehal der ? aku pun tau gak pasal ni. thasha cerita gak kat aku. bukan roommate kau sorg je cerita kat kau. tapi aku takde lah masuk campur hal depa. biaq la depa duk pi settle sendiri. tapi memandanngkan roommate kau telah membenarkan kau masuk campur dan ikut sama berperang dgn tasha , so tak salah aku rasa kalau aku pun join masuk campur kan ? jgn terkejut pulak lepas ni aku post kat wall kau ke ape ke kayy ? *warning telah diberi. pehh mafia habis aku rasa :P kau dulu senior aku. mmg aku admit masa kat maktab dulu mmg anti gila lah dekat batch kau. sory jika kurang sopan. tapi bila aku ingt dh keluar maktab cerita dulu tu dh boleh tutup dh since senior yg aku benci dulu seperti si KGV tu pun aku dh boleh okay ni pulak dgn kau yg selalu bagi tazkirah kat depan dan konon prihatin dgn masalah junior kan ? org berjawatan kan kau. dh mmg tugas kau pun kan nk menyibuk hal org. aku paham. tapi derr bila dh keluar maktab sepatutnya kita bersatu jadi budak ex-maktab kb ni. tapi kau ? nk carik pasal ape hal ? derr , lu tu dah lah senior kitaorg der. agk lawak bila senior nk carik gaduh dgn junior mcm budak kecik tau dak ? kalau junior tu aku phm ah lagi.

Lagi satu yg aku paling tak tahan gilaa , kau nk carik gaduh kan ? bahan nk attack tu biar lah bernas sikit. ni ada ke kau duk attack pasal spelling kwn aku tu. kau kata apa ? "kesian budak straight A's tak pandai eja LOSER.*skrg sila check ejaan aku. kalau salah jgn segan pulak nk post kat wall. " meh ceq nak tanya , hang dok zaman mana yg doq skema habis dkt fb pun nk kena eja bi correctly ? nak kata kau yg ceq kertas spm bi aku , mmg tak ah kan. nak kata teacher bi aku kat maktab , jauh sekali lah kan ? kau senior je kut. S.E.N.I.O.R. paham ? bi kau pun pernah B jugak kan dulu ? kau pun pernah dpt tanda merah jugak kan dkt kertas exam sb salah eja kan ? heyoo sista , jgn lah mentang-mentang bi kau dh A spm , hang dok ingat spelling hang semua vetul. ingat lah masa kau kat bawah dulu okayy ? jgn lah leka sgt duduk kat atas nuhh because life looks like a cycle. sometimes we're up and sometimes we're down. bila dh dkt atas jgn lupa tunduk bawah tengok balik apa yg boleh jd iktibar. and to make things clear , kawan aku eja LOSER mcm ni kan "LUUSER" eh takpun mcm nii "LOOSER" tapi yg penting dia eja mcm tu sb nk tunjuk kan kepanjangan bunyik huruf LUUU tu bila dia sebut kat kwn kau. phm lah derr , bila menulis ni cara nak express kita sebut mmg lain lah ejaan dia. pehe ? so kalau aku eja SOOOO mcm ni aku pun tak layak ah straight A's spm ? lawak ah derr kau.

*eh silah lah check ejaan aku. mana tau salah. kau kan pakar ejaan.
 take care lovies <3