MY BAD :\

heyy , i don't what on earth is that ? urghh , i do hate it.

i do appreciate what he did for me. like seriously i do. i don't wanna you, people, to think that i'm the unappreciative beast. i didn't really know what to say. but like yeaaa i felt guilty. i think i need sometime. to think. ALONE. i don't wanna hear you, people, come to me and say "oh come on. he did a lot." well , fyi i'm not that unappreciative beast who didn't think anything about his sacrifices. but somehow i'm wondering why i can't see that ? why and why ? what on earth is going here ?! i usually fall for someone very quickly. but i don't know what happen this time. am i being trauma or phobia or what ? ughh , i feel empty and uncertain bout everything.*ughh, i do hope this feeling blown away soon. i don't wanna give you hope or what. but i really hope we can be friends. you are my friend who really make my day , who make me laugh but after all , please don't push me down. you and the awesome friends already make me feel i'm worth being what i am. so please ? just be friends okay ? oh not , just BEST FRIENDS okay ? because we can go far if we remains as a friend. i'm afraid if we end up as a couple then we break up and what ? oh god,  i just can't imagine losing you in my life. i don't want the history to repeat itself.

but don't worry honey , if we are meant to be , then we are :)